I started writing poems as a way to express how I felt after someone who I could tell everything to passed away. Because of him, I've found something I love to do. This page is for you Donny, RIP.
"Just Breathe"
I wish it didn’t hurt. Every time I saw you. Every time I go to your house. Every time I talk to your parents. Your sister is my Bestfriend and there’s so much of you in her it’s ridiculous. I wish it didn’t hurt. Every good conversation we have and every bad one. Every time you talk about her, it doesn’t hurt, it kills. Every time I catch you staring at me I get numb I don’t even know what to feel anymore. Sometimes I wish I didn’t even meet you in seventh grade. I wish it didn’t hurt so bad it killed.
well here ya go,
this kid has been there for me since seventh grade even when I pushed him away. I still remember the day we met, at that wrestling tournament. I thought you ignored me so I did the same when you tried to talk to me, lol. If you would’ve asked me that day if I would still talk to you four years later I would’ve told you that you were insane. We lived in completely different towns in which we never even visited. We got caught up when we first started talking and both of us got hurt. I didn’t know what to do, I had never emotionally hurt someone that cared about me; I got scared. I pushed you away, I thought if I didn’t talk to you, it wouldn’t hurt. It worked for a while but it was only temporary. I realized what I did wrong, so I talked to you again. Never thinking I would fall for you. but, last year I did when I was in a unhealthy relationship. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I got stuck again and didn’t know what to do. your sister was my bestfriend and she didn’t want to lose me either so we couldn’t be together. I didn’t want to hurt you again so I thought not talking to you would solve it again. And here I am, nothing is the same. We don’t talk. We can hardly look each other in the eye. I have no one to go to anymore. I hate this. I’M SORRY.
